I didn’t read that book. You know the one. The one every other expectant mother reads. And I didn’t follow my progress week by week and I didn’t chronicle myself in pictures and I didn’t make cute signs detailing how big baby was at week 27 and week 32 because by the time I got ready to deliver, I was pretty sure I was going to be pushing out a baby the size of a watermelon anyway.
The truth is, though, I really didn’t know what to expect. I thought I did. I’m the oldest of seven kids, so I’d been around a lot of babies. In my mind, I figured if it was good enough for my mom, it was good enough for me, and I’d watched her and bathed and rocked and fed my sisters almost as much as she had.
So I thought.
Then I became a mother on a beautiful fall afternoon in mid-September and at first I thought motherhood was everything I’d expected and more. I’d gotten my sweet baby girl with her daddy’s lashes and plenty of dark hair to hold a bow and now I was a mama and this was what I expected life to be.
Until the afternoon I sat in the floor of my bedroom and held her and she cried and I cried and I couldn’t make her content and I realized this is what motherhood really is.
I thought I was ready. I thought I knew what was coming. I had expectations.
Thank God that eight years later I’m realizing that those expectations are so much less than reality. At least, they are when I open my arms to embrace what I’ve been given.
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This has to be my favorite post that I've read today.
I can't wait to see what you write about tomorrow!